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I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.

Beatrice Sparks

Sometimes fantasies are better than life.
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Better Fantasy Life Sometimes
Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
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Assembly Everything Record Robot Same Shadow
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
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Mistakes Thinking Trying
Even my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Even Expectation Inferior Measure
I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
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Humanity Small Parts
I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
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Kids Shadow Thinking
I’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.
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Fragmented Lost Shattered
They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!
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Important Individual Personality Something
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
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Home Mom Morning
I’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
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Afraid Dies Live
I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Expectations Like Measure
The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
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Bottom Complete Fallen Life
I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.
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Frightened Insecure Jocks
How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
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Hurt Physical Thought
I wouldn’t intentionally hurt anyone in this whole world. I wouldn’t hurt them physically or emotionally, how then can people so consistently do it to me?
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Hurt People Stupid
I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
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Book Part Real Really

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