My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
BEATRICE SPARKSEven my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
More Beatrice Sparks Quotes
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The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
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They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
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I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
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Alone. The saddest word in the world.
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Maybe the new me will be different.
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I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
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I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
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Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
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Why is life so difficult? Why can’t we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are?
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How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
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I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
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Nobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
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How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
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The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
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I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
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