I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
BEATRICE SPARKSI really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
BEATRICE SPARKSLying – remembering beauty in truth.
BEATRICE SPARKSI feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
BEATRICE SPARKSEven my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
BEATRICE SPARKSMaybe the new me will be different.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
BEATRICE SPARKSI pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.
BEATRICE SPARKSI can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
BEATRICE SPARKSAlone. The saddest word in the world.
BEATRICE SPARKSNobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
BEATRICE SPARKSThey have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!
BEATRICE SPARKSHow is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
BEATRICE SPARKSI would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
BEATRICE SPARKSI bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
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