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I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.

Beatrice Sparks

I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
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Believe Littles Looks
Maybe the new me will be different.
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Different Maybe New
It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.
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Blood Life People
How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
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Hurt Physical Thought
I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
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Drug Feels Wonderland
Alone. The saddest word in the world.
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Saddest World
I’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.
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Escape Sleep Way
I’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.
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Fragmented Lost Shattered
Even my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Even Expectation Inferior Measure
The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
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Kids Thinking Voice
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
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Mistakes Thinking Trying
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
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Home Mom Morning
I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
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Kids Shadow Thinking
They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!
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Important Individual Personality Something
They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
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Hurt Selfish Thinking
I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
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Good Life Minutes Rest Scare

I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.

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