I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
BEATRICE SPARKSI bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
BEATRICE SPARKSI pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
BEATRICE SPARKSLying – remembering beauty in truth.
BEATRICE SPARKSI can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
BEATRICE SPARKSAlone. The saddest word in the world.
BEATRICE SPARKSThey don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
BEATRICE SPARKSMy biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
BEATRICE SPARKSHow is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
BEATRICE SPARKSone day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young
BEATRICE SPARKSSometimes fantasies are better than life.
BEATRICE SPARKSNobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
BEATRICE SPARKSMaybe the new me will be different.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
BEATRICE SPARKSEven my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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