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I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.

Beatrice Sparks

She didn’t know whether she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart she wanted to go home.
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Heart Home Running
The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
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Bottom Complete Fallen Life
Maybe the new me will be different.
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Different Maybe New
Nobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
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Everything Guess Nobody Talking
I’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
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Afraid Dies Live
I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
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Kids Shadow Thinking
I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
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Drugs Harder Pills Show World
They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
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Hurt Selfish Thinking
I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Expectations Like Measure
They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!
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Important Individual Personality Something
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
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Mistakes Thinking Trying
How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
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Hurt Physical Thought
I pretend I’ve got lots of confidence and I’m a big jock and like that but deep inside I’m a frightened, insecure, can’t-make-it failure.
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Frightened Insecure Jocks
I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
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Good Life Minutes Rest Scare
Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
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Assembly Everything Record Robot Same Shadow
I wouldn’t intentionally hurt anyone in this whole world. I wouldn’t hurt them physically or emotionally, how then can people so consistently do it to me?
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Hurt People Stupid
How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
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Embarrassed Function Miserable
I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
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Believe Littles Looks
Why is life so difficult? Why can’t we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are?
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Accepting Difficult Way
I’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.
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Escape Sleep Way
one day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young
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Old One Day Young
Sometimes fantasies are better than life.
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Better Fantasy Life Sometimes
I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
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Drug Feels Wonderland
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
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Home Mom Morning
The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
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Kids Thinking Voice
It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.
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Blood Life People
I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
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Humanity Small Parts

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