I was a dumpy teenager. My mum was a model and was all about looks, so I rebelled by going goth. It took me years of peeling back the onion to finally stop using make-up as a mask and feel comfortable in my skin.
I think it’s always important to reflect anyway, no matter what age you’re approaching or what milestone is in front of you. Reflection should be almost a daily thing if possible.
Marriage brings up all the things I pushed to the back burner – the fears, the mistrust, the doubts, the insecurities. It’s like opening Pandora’s box.
When I come residence from an evening out with my honey and my make-up’s just a little smudged. I have many moments when I really feel lovely. It’s all about having that inside confidence.
As I’ve gotten older there’s just more awareness around what is good for my body internally, externally, physically. It’s all about reading labels and being aware and conscious of what goes in.
Relationships are two people; everyone is accountable. A lot goes into a relationship coming together, and a lot goes into a relationship falling apart. Even if it’s 98 percent the other person’s fault, it’s 2 percent yours…. You can only clean up your side of the street.
Being this side of 40 feels like what I should have felt being this side of 25: in my body, in my heart, happy with my life, and OK with whatever bumps in the road present themselves.
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