I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
BEATRICE SPARKSSometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
BEATRICE SPARKSI guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
BEATRICE SPARKSEven my parents treat me like I’m stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
BEATRICE SPARKSMaybe the new me will be different.
BEATRICE SPARKSNobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
BEATRICE SPARKSSometimes fantasies are better than life.
BEATRICE SPARKSI feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too.
BEATRICE SPARKSThis morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
BEATRICE SPARKSLying – remembering beauty in truth.
BEATRICE SPARKSThe voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
BEATRICE SPARKSAlone. The saddest word in the world.
BEATRICE SPARKSI would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
BEATRICE SPARKSThey don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.
BEATRICE SPARKS