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I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.

Beatrice Sparks

Nobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
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Everything Guess Nobody Talking
I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
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Believe Littles Looks
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
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Mistakes Thinking Trying
How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren’t even physical?
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Hurt Physical Thought
Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
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Assembly Everything Record Robot Same Shadow
I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
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Drugs Harder Pills Show World
I’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
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Afraid Dies Live
How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
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Embarrassed Function Miserable
They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody!
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Important Individual Personality Something
She didn’t know whether she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart she wanted to go home.
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Heart Home Running
It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.
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Blood Life People
I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it’s so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.
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Good Life Minutes Rest Scare
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
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Home Mom Morning
The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
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Kids Thinking Voice
They don’t think “I care,” “I hurt,” or “I have feelings.” It just seems like I’m always “wrong,” always “selfish,” always “self-centered” and everything else that’s negative and destructive.
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Hurt Selfish Thinking
I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Expectations Like Measure

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