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I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the body in silence, and then they strike. The secret is out. You’re dying.

Marya Hornbacher

You wake up one morning and there it is, sitting in an old plaid bathrobe in your kitchen, unpleasant and unshaved. You look at it, heart sinking. Madness is a rotten guest.
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Heart Kitchen Morning
You can only whine for so long. Then you need to get your life back.
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Back Life Long Need Time
My brain sometimes departs from the agreed-upon reality, and my private reality is a very lonely place. But in the end, I’m not sure I wish I’d never gone there.
MARYA HORNBACHER

Brain Lonely Reality
The fact that you were essentially dead does not register until you begin to come alive.
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Alive Essential Fact
When you are mad, mad like this, you don’t know it. Reality is what you see. When what you see shifts, departing from anyone else’s reality, it’s still reality to you.
MARYA HORNBACHER

Depression Mad Reality
Hatred is so much closer to love than indifference.
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Closer Hatred Indifference
After a lifetime of silence, it is difficult then to speak.
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Lifetime Silence Speak
Me and my needs were driving my mother away. Me and my needs retreated to my closet, disappeared into fairy tales. I started making up a world where my needs wouldn´t exist at all.
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Mother Needs World
The joy is an absurd yellow tulip, popping up in my life, contradicting all the evidence that shows it should not be there.
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Contradicting Joy Yellow
You will miss her sometimes. Bear in mind she’s trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live.
MARYA HORNBACHER

Anorexia Mind Miss
Children take in more information than we’d like to believe.
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Believe Children Information
I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the body in silence, and then they strike. The secret is out. You’re dying.
MARYA HORNBACHER

Long Silence Waiting
The anoretic operates under the astounding illusion that she can escape the flesh, and, by association, the realm of emotions.
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Anorexia Association Flesh
That’s the nice thing about dreams, the way you wake up before you fall.
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Dream Fall Nice
We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need.
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Anorexia Disorder Eating Skeletons
I know for a fact that sickness is easier, but health is more interesting.
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Fact Interesting Sickness

I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the body in silence, and then they strike. The secret is out. You’re dying.

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I know how this feels: the tightening of the chest, the panic, the what-have-I-done-wait-I-was-kidding. Eating disorders linger so long undetected, eroding the body in silence, and then they strike. The secret is out. You’re dying.

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