I don’t like [the pressure] that people put on me, on women, that you’ve failed yourself as a female because you haven’t procreated. This continually is said about me: that I was so career-driven and focused on myself; that I don’t want to be a mother, and how selfish that is.
Because I was never a ‘where do you see yourself in five years’ person. I had no idea, and I didn’t have a checklist, which really creates a lot less stress in your life.
I think that’s the great thing about being with, having a dog, is it kind of forces you to be in the present because that’s definitely where they’re spending their time.
It would be great to have a little getaway place somewhere hot, maybe down in Mexico, since I love it there. But now that I’ve banned myself from the sun, I don’t know how that will work.
I think it’s always important to reflect anyway, no matter what age you’re approaching or what milestone is in front of you. Reflection should be almost a daily thing if possible.
Marriage brings up all the things I pushed to the back burner – the fears, the mistrust, the doubts, the insecurities. It’s like opening Pandora’s box.
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