I think once a Catholic, always a Catholic. You never escape. I still have Catholic guilt. It is in its basis a really powerful religion and a really strong set of beliefs. They permeate my work in many ways.
I’m a movement Nazi. It used to be my way before. Now, in the last three projects. I found a way to let the actors find their comfort and still find the precision in the show. It’s a change in me.
There are times when you are in despair, because in order not to betray who you are, you don’t compromise, you don’t make movies that would be very lucrative or prestigious or easily understood. And yet I stay attached to the most uncanny premises. It’s never been easy.
I had gotten to the point where I just didn’t want to perform anymore – I didn’t want to be on the chopping block anymore. I started to want to withdraw and retreat from it.
You can always go back to not making any money, and then you get the freedom. And I’m going to continue doing it, because it really is a fantastic sense of liberation.
