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My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.

Beatrice Sparks

I can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
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Believe Littles Looks
The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus “Not me! I didn’t think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it.
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Kids Thinking Voice
I’ve got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape.
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Escape Sleep Way
I’m not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I’ve gotten from books.
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Book Part Real Really
Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
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Assembly Everything Record Robot Same Shadow
My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
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Mistakes Thinking Trying
The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
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Bottom Complete Fallen Life
How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
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Embarrassed Function Miserable
Sometimes fantasies are better than life.
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Better Fantasy Life Sometimes
I guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
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Expectations Like Measure
I’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.
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Fragmented Lost Shattered
I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
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Drugs Harder Pills Show World
I’m afraid to live and afraid to die.
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Afraid Dies Live
I’m partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing.
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Kids Shadow Thinking
This morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
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Home Mom Morning
one day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young
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Old One Day Young

My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.

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My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.

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