There is an intuitive knowing within us that we are eternal but this gets covered over with the noise we create while identifying with the impermanent.
God can never be close. God can never be close because it would mean that there is some place where God is not. God is infinite. We cannot exist outside of the infinite. Therefore, God is our Reality.
You are learning too much, remembering too much, trying to hard relax a little bit, give life a chance to flow its own way, unassisted by your mind and effort. Stop directing the river’s flow!
Focus your mind on ‘I Am’, which is pure and simple being. You are Here and Now only. Contemplate what it is to be fully ‘Here’ and fully ‘Now’. For this you must leave all else. Stay only as here-now Conscious presence. This is Heart. This is Self.
