“Nothing hurts me more than when I tell you to leave me alone, and you do.”

You float underneath my eyelids – a dream I never seem to get enough of.

Of all the lies I’ve lived, and all the lies I’ve been told, the lies I told myself hurt the most.

If there’s anything I’ve learnt so far, it’s that to love others, you should give them space to breathe.

And it scares me that if I ever get my wings, I might not know where to fly to.

I am grieving a connection that never really happened, a dance of souls that only lasted one day.

Maybe that’s why it was so easy for you to break me, you can always tear the pages of an open book.

When she laughs, her soul floats outside her body and I can touch it.

I wish I can still hold your hand like I used to. I wish you were still alive.

You touch me and a thousand different particles come alive beneath my skin.

I shed skin after skin, seeking my true colors, expecting a rainbow or a stripe of black, but all I get are maps of red. We are all human underneath.

Sometimes I feel like I’m only a drop in your ocean and the waves will soon carry me away.

It was always your dreams we focused on, you never thought I’d have dreams too.

You feed me poison in a spoon of gold and I always ask for more.

You pull away and suddenly I have more room to grow.

Maybe if you hold me tight, our love won’t be as shallow.

And when you win all wars of life, there will remain one you must lose. Time.

A year has passed, and even after all that has changed, I know one thing hasn’t. I still want you.

The best lesson you can receive is knowing when to let go.

Keep ignoring someone, Regret when they forget you.

If you must break the law, do it to seize power: in all other cases observe it.

Missing you come in waves. Tonight I am just drowning.

Eyes bloodshot, words insane, anxious thoughts, feelings ashamed. After all, it was the heart to be blamed.

I hope to help make a better world for my daughters; to help break down the divides that still very much exist.

Promises were made and broken. Only you could keep me open.