Marriage brings up all the things I pushed to the back burner – the fears, the mistrust, the doubts, the insecurities. It’s like opening Pandora’s box.
I was a dumpy teenager. My mum was a model and was all about looks, so I rebelled by going goth. It took me years of peeling back the onion to finally stop using make-up as a mask and feel comfortable in my skin.
I realised how paranoid and guarded and not trusting – walled-in – I had become. Not consciously so, but just this armour that I kind of have, protective armour. It’s not for my friends or family, but for being.outside in the world, always on guard.
I’ve been lucky to have things come to me that creatively fulfill me, and those are usually the independent films just because you have a little bit more freedom.
