Life works in mysterious ways and rejection is more a sign of guidance rather than an attack. You have to learn to be patient and open-hearted. Opportunity comes to those who wait.
If you ever feel alone, remember your parents. They are like your personal humans because you share DNA. Despite your good & bad relationship, you were born from them. They belong to you & you belong to them.
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