Sometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
BEATRICE SPARKSSometimes I think we’re all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don’t like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don’t want to be a robot!
BEATRICE SPARKSI bet the pill is harder to get than drugs–which shows how screwed up this world really is!
BEATRICE SPARKSThe complete bottom has fallen out of my life.
BEATRICE SPARKSI guess I’ll never measure up to anyone’s expectations. I surely don’t measure up to what I’d like to be.
BEATRICE SPARKSShe didn’t know whether she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart she wanted to go home.
BEATRICE SPARKSThis morning when I left Mom’s parting words were, “Come straight home after school.” Wow! Like I’m going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn’t sound so bad at that.
BEATRICE SPARKSSometimes fantasies are better than life.
BEATRICE SPARKSI can’t believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it’s only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated.
BEATRICE SPARKSMy biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.
BEATRICE SPARKSMaybe the new me will be different.
BEATRICE SPARKSI’m really cracking. No, I’m beyond cracking. I’m shattered. I’m lost. I’m fragmented.
BEATRICE SPARKSI really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.
BEATRICE SPARKSone day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young
BEATRICE SPARKSHow is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?
BEATRICE SPARKSNobody’s talking to me, but nobody’s hassling me either. I guess you can’t have everything.
BEATRICE SPARKSAlone. The saddest word in the world.
BEATRICE SPARKS