I just tried to be, tried to absorb the man I loved through osmosis, tried to imprint what I had left of him on myself. I did not speak.
JOJO MOYESI just tried to be, tried to absorb the man I loved through osmosis, tried to imprint what I had left of him on myself. I did not speak.
JOJO MOYES“I’m fine. I just…I don’t want to go in just yet. I just want to sit and not have to think about…I just…want to be a man who has been to a concert with a girl in a red dress. Just for a few minutes more.
JOJO MOYESI’m not going to try and change you mind.” “If you’re here, you accept it’s my choice. This is the first thing I’ve been in control of since the accident.” “I know.” And there it was. He knew it, and I knew it.
JOJO MOYESIt’s complicated.’ ‘So’s quantitative easing. But I still get that it means printing money.
JOJO MOYESMuch to my own surprise, I got through it. And life…well, gradually became livable again.
JOJO MOYESI am conscious that knowing me has caused you pain, and grief, and I hope that one day when you are less angry with me and less upset you will see not just that I could only have done the thing that I did, but also that this will help you live a really good life, a better life, than if you hadn’t met me.
JOJO MOYESAnd I don’t want to look at you every day, to see you naked,to watch you wandering around the annexe in your crazy dresses and not…not be able to do what I want with you.
JOJO MOYESYou can only actually help someone who wants to be helped.
JOJO MOYESAnd then, just like that, my heart broke. My face crumpled, my composure went and I held him tightly and I stopped caring that he could feel the shudder of my sobbing body because grief swamped me.
JOJO MOYESAnd then you walk into a room one day, whether it’s at university or an office or some kind of club, and you just go, ‘Ah. There they are.’ And suddenly you feel at home.
JOJO MOYESI felt the music like a physical thing; it didn’t just sit in my ears, it flowed through me, around me, made my senses vibrate. It made my skin prickle and my palms dampen…It was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard.
JOJO MOYESNobody fights you like your own sister; nobody else knows the most vulnerable parts of you and will aim for them without mercy.
JOJO MOYESI kissed him, trying to bring him back. I kissed him and let my lips rest against his so that our breath mingled and the tears from my eyes became salt on his skin, and I told myself that, somewhere, tiny particles of him would become tiny particles of me, ingested, swallowed, alive, perpetual.
JOJO MOYES“What if I like watching television? What if I don’t want to do much else other than read a book?”.
JOJO MOYESReal friends were the kind where you pick up where you’d left off, whether it be a week since you’d seen each other or two years.
JOJO MOYESI told him I loved him,” she said, her voice dropping to a whisper. “And he just said it wasn’t enough.” Her eyes were wide and bleak . “How am I supposed to live with that?
JOJO MOYES